Bharat S. M. Karavadra

Perceptions and the Reality of Life

Sunday, August 30th, 2009

A few years ago, I experienced what I can only now best describe as a downward spiral in my life and everything (and I mean everything) was going wrong. People close to me were dying (and they did die), my work was not serving my clients’ real needs nor myself in terms of personal satisfaction, my financial outlook was dim, my relationships were almost non-existent (I was arguing with people most of the time and distancing people), and everything I tried to do went wrong and everything I had was going wrong or breaking down.

Being a logical thinker and solutions orientated, I tried to work out what was going wrong but the things that were going on in my life simply did not make any logical sense and when I pushed myself to find a solution or explanation for what was happening and how to resolve it, I couldn’t and kept finding myself at a virtual brick wall but I strongly believed that there was a truth to what was going on that I was not seeing.

Since I can remember (back to the age of about 7) I have felt and believed that there was a truth that there was something behind the scenes of the reality of life that we experience on a day to day basis, but I did not know what it was, what is was there for, or when it would become a part of my life. I just knew it was there. These thoughts and feelings re-surfaced in varying strengths over many years but I never looked for or found any glimpse of an answer until recently.

I felt that life was becoming unfair to me and especially considering that I knew and truly believed that I was a good person, life was becoming unfair for no good reason. That’s all I had going for me and never let go of this thought and tried to keep my patience as much as possible waiting for the day my nightmare would end.

The negative experiences continued and then one day in early October 2007, I lost my patience and banged my fists on my desk and said to myself, in the loudest way possible that I can perceive anyone can shout in their head, “I want my life back”.

I did not say these words to anyone in particular. The only way I can describe it now is that it was a cry out to the universe, be it only in my head. I think I stopped working at that point and probably went outside for a cigarette and a few beers to try to forget about everything and then went to sleep.

I woke up the next morning to get on with my work and only because I had client projects to help deliver, otherwise I would have done something quite drastic.

I got one client project to a certain stage and then called him to discuss what I had done and to discuss what we required to do next. To date, I do not remember if we talked about the project at all in that conversation. The only thing I remember is him asking me if I had seen a certain film, the subject of which was nothing to do with the project or our recent conversations. I replied “No” to his question, but for some reason the title of the film, and mysterious nature of the conversation, intrigued me from very deep within myself. My client continued the conversation by describing the film but my mind still could not make any sense of what the film was about.

Usually in such a situation I would have been polite and said something like “thank you for the information” and then steered the conversation back to the project. However, something in me wanted me to see the film and my client said that he would send me a copy if I was interested in watching it. Again, something inside me urged me to get it and not by receiving a copy of it. I felt that I had to buy it and so I got online and purchased the film. It came a few days later and I watched it with my then wife.

The film was truly amazing and at end of it, I cried and at the time I did not realise it but I did so a few days later that it was a cry of joy. My belief in there being a bigger truth than that I and most people on this planet experience on day to day was introduced to me, but something in me still believed that there was more to the truth than what was conveyed in the film. So I maintned my belief in their being more to know and applied what I learned in the film and found other missing parts of the truth which I believed existed.

For the past few of years I have since read many printed and digital books, listened to many audio programmes and watched many videos to understand my life, life and the reality of life and I believe I have received enough information for me to deal with my current perception/stage  of life and to now apply more of what I have learned of the truth rather than do more searching.

For now I want to tell you about what I now believe through direct personal experience;

There seem to be 5 perceptions/stages to the reality of life (for human beings anyway).

As I have personally experienced all 5 perceptions/stages (be it in modest amounts) and have not experienced even the smallest glimpse of anything else which could be titled as another perception/stage for about 6 months since writing this article (30th August 2009), I feel that is it time to share my experiences so that you can review your own perceptions of life whilst I get on with applying what I have learned and perhaps documenting and publishing my findings.

The 5 perceptions/stages I have experienced so far and that I can best describe at the moment are as follows (in future, I will try to clarify the wording as much as I can and when the clarity comes):

1)You are not in control:
You are experiencing everything and everyone in your life because of the power of everything and everyone else in your life. (i.e. You are experiencing something or someone because of this or that reason).
(Summary: VICTIM)
At the time of being introduced to and experiencing this perception/stage of life I thank my birth to the universe and my parents (Savdas Meraman Karavadra and Rambhi Savdas Karavadra, and my “history”).

2)You are determined:
You can see what’s happening in life and have the experiences and skills or can ask for help, get advice or learn new skills that give you the power to communicate or perform physical actions to change what you are experiencing. (i.e. You can do something to change what you are experiencing).
(Abbreviation: DETERMINED)
At the time of being introduced to and experiencing this perception/stage of life I thank my will.

3)You have power:
You can attract things and people into your life to make a difference in what you are experiencing without taking direct action. (i.e. You can intend [think of] something happening and it happens to change your experience without you taking direct related actions).
(Abbreviation: EMPOWERED)
At the times of being introduced to and experiencing this perception/stage of life I thank my grandparents (Mr Meraman Hadha Ranmal & Mrs Lakibhen Meraman Ranmal) and Rhonda Byrne.

4)You know there is a greater power:
You have power to create experiences but you do not know why you are experiencing some things or people in your life and you surrender to a greater force to change your experiences for you. (i.e. You admit you don’t know why your power is still creating negative experiences in your life, as well as the positive, and surrender to a greater power to create better experiences).
(Abbreviation: SURRENDERED)
At the times of being introduced to and experiencing this perception/stage of life I thank Eckhart Tolle, Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len.

5)You know that you are the power:
You know that you are and have the potential to create everything and everyone you experience including yourself. (i.e. You know that there is no need to change anything because you are creating everything that you experience. You are the creator.)
(Abbreviation: AWAKENED)
At the times of being introduced to and experiencing this perception/stage of life I thank Eckharte Tolle, Dr. Joe Vitale, Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len and Robert Scheinfeld.

On publishing this article on Sunday 30^th August 2009, I perceive life from the (4)SURRENDERED perspective with a glimpses of (5) AWAKENED and playful attempts at (3)EMPOWERED, memories of (1) VICTIMHOOD and renewal of(2) DETERMINED

I hope to write more about the topics in this article in future and also about my findings of applying what I have learned.

To interact sooner, please let me know what your own perception/stage of life is at the moment and how you feel about it by using the poll & vote and comments sections below and I will reply as soon as I can. Alternatively you can contact me directly using the contact link on the top menu.

Thank you for reading.